Nothing

Is just lazy to blog recently.

Stay tune, will have a longer post for recently activities~

^.^

他是双鱼座

双鱼座的人是敏感而又善良的，虽然他们的生命里充满了矛盾，但他们的矛盾与双子纯粹的对立不同，喜欢幻想未来的鱼鱼们的矛盾是源于他们的敏感的情绪，他们会因为别人的一些细节而陷入矛盾，灵魂里的矛盾是指向外界的世界的，有时会是善良的天使，但有时则会变成恶魔，正与邪，像是联合在一起，只是在不同的时间不同的人物面前显示他们不同的一面。

鱼随冷血，但鱼在温暖的水中也会感受到温暖，鱼们虽然将内心深深的藏了起来，但如果你用温暖的水保护他们，他们敏感的神经也会为之感动，双鱼座是冬天和黄道带的最后一个星座。冬天在它即将离去的时候，把相对意识留给了双鱼座的人。所以这些人身上还带着些寒冬的寒冷，但是他们也是最早接触春天的人，春冻交替的时间里诞生，所以有着冷与热两个极端，但他们却也总是善良而又朴实，最重要的还是那冬雪融化对温度要求的那么苛刻的敏感

双鱼座的人总是在追求着幻想，他们可以将自己生活的环境想象成另外的样子，也可以把自己想象成王子或公主，这是鱼们的共性，音乐、艺术创作、电影、电视、戏剧、尤其是舞蹈都是适合鱼们的工作，鱼对未来的期待，是他们努力的原动力，他们总是在努力，去追寻那个梦境中的乌托邦，寻找那场柏拉图似的爱情，他们的幻想，也是成功的原因。

在人生旅途中，他们有时会因为怯懦、漫不经心、自由放任和模糊不清的思想而无所适从，也会因为自己的缄默和缺乏奔放的热情而悲观失望。粗暴的言行会使他们的精神受到强烈的刺激，而他们也希望自己的周围充满和谐友爱的气氛。所以他们的一生需要有一个强有力的人的支持和帮助。因此和蔼可亲的秉性得到了所有人的好感，也正是因为这样，鱼的身边，总会有一群可以将心比心，肝胆相照的好朋友

鱼们可以很浪漫，也可以很现实，他们可以现实的活着，也能写出诗一样的文字，他们的多面性也使他们具备了其他11个星座的一些特质，有这样一个比喻，十二星座就像冰糖葫芦，前十一个星座都是山楂，双鱼就是那根签子，虽然我们买冰糖葫芦不是为了吃签子，但是如果没有签子，这世上就没有冰糖葫芦了。

所以说鱼虽然有时会显得平凡，但他们健全的人格会使他们很有人缘，他们的温情与简单的对未来的幻想也使一些人主动的他们靠近

鱼还有一个特点就是十分的聪明，加之以感性的神经使他们除了很多的诗人，而每天的诺贝尔奖里，鱼的比例也远远超过那十二分之一，他们的聪明不像双子座那样简单直接的表现在人们面前，而是直接看穿事情的本质，然后谨记在心，这也是他们敏感的一种表演，对生活的细节总是能够观察的特别细致，但鱼敏感的神经也注定了他们的脆弱，容易受伤是他们的弱点，因为他们的敏感不单单可以放大快乐，也可以放大悲伤，当负面情绪袭来的时候，他们会感觉无助孤单，甚至是一种痛苦的状态，因此，请不要伤害鱼，因为你以为只是无不足道的讽刺，会变成响彻云霄的嘲笑声，这样做，很可耻

请不要忽略鱼，鱼对未来的渴望使他们注定了不平凡，他们的坚持，对未来的强烈渴望使他们诞生了亚历山大大帝，戈尔巴乔夫大帝，哥白尼，雨果，梁启超等等一大批对自己事业奋斗一生的人

请不要忽略鱼，因为鱼的两面性随时都存在着，不要让他们用危险的一面对着你，你会很危险，鱼的邪恶藏的很深，请不要激怒鱼，否者天使会化作恶魔

请不要忽略鱼，因为鱼是最好的聆听者，他们会是你最好的朋友，他们不会用残忍的语言面对任何一个人，因为他们不忍心，他们的善良充斥着每一个细胞

请不要忽略鱼，因为鱼害怕孤独，一个人的角落里伤感的情绪会被无限的放大进而笼罩全身，他们需要关心，需要保护，虽然他们自己有时足够的强大

请不要忽略鱼，因为这是对鱼最大的伤害

请记得，鱼随冷血，却也渴望天空

我是魔羯座~

摩羯座是一个由极端混合而成的矛盾体，从来不曾有哪一个星座曾像他们一样痛苦地在成为一个好人还是坏人的思虑中，那么频繁而且痛苦的挣扎，他们一方面热切的希望自己能化作和煦的春光复舒万物，一方面又会疯狂的期盼自己能变作三尺寒冰冻结天地。可对于这个冬季出生的人群来说，对温暖的追求又是那么执著，所以到了最后，他总是又跳跃回去，积极地培育自己的春光一样的明媚品质了，成为一个好人带给他们的快感似乎更容易让他们就觉得陶醉。相对于他们自身的感受而言，他们并不愿陷在任何负面的阴暗情绪里。但同时又觉得做个坏人也没什么不好。

一般来讲，孩童时期，他们是最乖巧惹人疼的乖宝宝，而年轻的魔羯总是容易显得孤僻不合群，年纪越大的魔羯在社会上越如鱼得水，老了之后，他们往往会成为难得的和蔼又宽容的代表（尽管这宽容和和蔼来的那么像扑面而来的皇权的体贴，让人面对时虽然觉得温暖却不敢靠近放肆）。虽然他们终身致力于中庸的调和，又向往任何明媚的气质，但这种根深蒂固的极端总是很容易失去控制，让他们在社会中莫名的感到落落寡欢。

魔羯的极端，是矛盾的状态，很爱很恨，总在两端不停跳跃，找不到中间平衡态，所以魔羯座对自己的情绪也会有困惑，于是他们就在这种激烈撞击的心理状态下表现出一如既往的漠然，不然他是没有办法思考的，“自己到底在想什么？自己到底站在哪一边？”就在这种冷漠的伪装中，魔羯正在反反复复整理自己的各种相互矛盾的情绪和想法，而这就成了世人眼中的深思熟虑吧。想必魔羯在有的时候会羡慕天蝎和天平：一个的爱恨有方向（非爱即恨），一个的爱恨是完全调和的（没有最最爱也没有最最恨）。 你要让身边的魔羯去分析一个人的优缺点，如果他想说，那么你会发现这个人的无论优点还是缺点都统统无所遁形，你发现他可能分析到别人的一句话一个动作，也用上了自己的第六感。你会一边赞叹魔羯的惊人的分析别人能力，一边又暗暗出冷汗，觉得魔羯竟然这么分析别人？！真是有点老谋深算的感觉。如果他不想说，你就会发现他好像对任何人都好冷漠，对任何事都漠不关心，如果他心情亢奋，你也许又会看到另外两个形象：也许非常刻薄，也许非常赞许。

魔羯是一个十分敏感的星座，他能够通过一件小事看透一个人，也十分了解什么是好的，什么是适合社会的，同时，魔羯又是一个极其爱自我怀疑的星座，当别人流露出美好气质的时候，他会立刻丢弃自己关于别人缺点的分析，所以说起来，魔羯其实很容易上当受骗，也很容易受伤害。因为他们天生的敏感，倒也很容易察觉到自己被骗了，这时他们极端的性格再次发挥作用：当他们看到别人表现出好的一面时，对别人的信任是绝对的，不参杂的；而当他们发现，即使是一件微不足道的小事上的欺骗，他们就绝不会再信任了。 　　　　　　

很少有人和别人交往是从绝对的信任开始，可是魔羯是。这听起来真不像是天天把人性分析得那么透彻的魔羯所为，但这却是千真万确的。魔羯总是很轻易的就把一个以前从未接触过的陌生人定义为好人，别人说什么他都会信以为真。而且他们一旦对别人建立良好的印象就很难消除。非常容易被感动，最有报恩的冲动：你要是毫无条件的帮他一回，他可能表面不动声色，却暗暗想把你一辈子都包揽照顾起来。他们总是把自己的责任看得太重，一旦帮了忙他就是拼了老命也要做得尽善尽美，不能容忍别人有一点不满意。所以尽管求他们办事很难，可一旦答应你就放一百二十个心吧！ 　　 这仿佛是个从桃源来的圣人。可他并不是。他只不过习惯了自我伤害罢了！事事走极端的性格是他的致命伤，他们至少要活到50岁往上才学会“和别人的交往要从怀疑到信任，不要太追求绝对”这句话的一星半点，而且只是偶尔拿出来用用。虽然这句话他们只有十岁大的时候

你不知道的事~

你不知道

我很想哭

你不知道

我哭的原因

你不知道

我为何不和你分享

你不知道

你不知道

你不知道

你不知道

因为我从没和你讲过

你也不会去记住

今天，真的没什么事

别担心~~~~

Lazy song

I was surprise when first heard this song, and felt in love with this song immediately~ The lazy song by Bruno Mars

Today i dont feel like doing anything

I just wanna lay in my bed

Dont feel like picking up my phone

So leave a message at the tone

Cause today i swear im not doing any thing

Nothing at all

ooh hoo ooh hoo

hoo ooh hoo

Nothing at all

ooh hoo ooh hoo

hoo ooh hoo

I dont feel like doing anything all the time, but i have to finish it~~ =.= 

Luckily

Actually im a luckily person. I got him as my boyfriend. If others look at my blog and always argue with him, he definitely throw me a side. Thank you for your care and inclusive. I appreciate it very much. And I know you love me^^

Second, i got a complete family. Although i staying far from them, i still can feel the family warm from them by just giving me a simple call. I realize i have been long time no call them due to the assignment and the emotional problem. However, my phone is full of his calling record. I believe that, this month's bill will be very attractive.

Third, I got a branch of 'family' here. Yea, no doubt. Its MCD family. We seldom meet each other, but hopefully our friendship still there. When i in down mood, they will come and comfort me, talk to me. Thanks alot~

Fourth, I got my best PR friends in my life. They really awesome. They are those who study in the same class with me, talk to me, assignment with me and so on. They are close to me, we will stick together sometimes but not all the time.

Fifth, I got my secondary school friends. They are concern me all the time although they didnt show in out infront others people.

Last but not least, i got a lengzai academic advisor. ^^ he taught me in y1s1 and im that lucky is one of his advisee. Maybe he will think, he is the unlucky 1， got me as his advisee. lolx... Sometimes i will share my things with him besides academic. So he is kind lecturer + tutor+ listener+ advisor. 

How lucky am i?? Got this much of friends and family at my side. Im not alone. Stand up after you fall, dont just think that you are the unlucky 1. Is so much better than others. Appreciate and be thankful. 

矛盾

我哭了，我的眼泪总是轻易得掉下来。

原因，不详。

或许我真的爱哭吧。还是我喝太多水？

原因，不详。

一个问题出现在我脑海里。。。

我真的那么爱他吗？

和他吵过很多次，可是我们还是走到今天。

每次吵完架后都很想放手，可是都不舍得。

惨了，我真的哭惨了。。。

我感觉很矛盾。

明明很想念他，可是却不敢打电话给他。

怕他嫌我烦。

（他不喜欢我问他在那里。）

明明很关心他，却不敢联络他。

怕他觉得我喽说。

（他总是说他会很小心。）

明明在生气，可是却不敢和他说。

怕他说我小气。

（他总说我喜欢看你笑的样子）

明明很想跟他分享我的喜悦，可是总是说不出口。

怕闷荒他。

（他总是不闻不问）

明明很想依赖他，可是总是自己躲在一旁哭。

怕他说我难缠。

（他总是说我爱哭鬼）

明明很不喜欢自己一个人，可是总是把自己锁在房间里。

好像怕了整个世界。

（可能这就是他所说的私人空间）

明明很想和他说话，可是我们总没话题。

我们不多话说。

明明很想让他关心，却不让他知道我的状况。

怕他担心，怕他多想。

明明有很多明明，可是我却把它们留给了自己。

我不知道我想怎样。

也不知道到底是怎样。

我只知道，我很矛盾。

请你告诉我，我该怎样做才不会让你觉得我是这样的霸道，这样的任性呢？？
我醉了。你可以当作我疯了。

Happy birthday *cheat 1*

I had arguement with him few days ago. Erm... Quite serious 1! But today, he bought my my favorite cakie ^^

Although is not my birthday today, but i still got a whole cake as dinner supper^^

Totally love cake till max. Fruit cake from Cake Inns

Happy birthday to me^^ Love cake till max

Thank you for the cake and is fruit cake

You are not alone

Another day has gone

I am still all alone

How could this be

You are not here with me

You never said goodbye

Someone tell me why

Did you have to go 

And leave my world so cold

Everyday i sit and ask myself

How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and say

That you are not alone

For i am here with you

Though you far away

I am here to stay

But you are not alone

For i am here with you

Though we are far apart 

You are always in my heart

But you are not alone

Yea, Im not alone. I still got to assignment at my side T.T

我，寂寞了

单身者，会把他们的思恋，精神都寄托在面子书上部落格里。再不然他们会尽全力的做好每一件事，尽量不让自己掉进爱河。他们不是不想恋爱，他们不是没人追，而是他们不敢恋爱。他们怕伤害。伤害别人也伤害了自己。

我，虽然恋爱了，可是跟单生者没什么两样。天天守在面子书上，为的就是等他上网。在他没上网的时候，唯有把我所有的思念都发泄在朋友身上。画他们的墙，无聊的在他们的新状况留言。三不五时还有人问你，你无聊啊？酱的空。。。
我，一旦爱了就会尽全力的维持一段关系。不喜欢被忽略，不喜欢等待。所以，往往都是我在做主动。被动的你可以不要再被动了吗？
我，寂寞了。。。

虚伪

这是给一位朋友。

虚伪，让你变得难以接近

虚伪，让你变得如此的假

虚伪，只会让人远离你

虚伪，对你没有好处

虚伪，到最后被伤害的还是你自己

虚伪，是一种没有自信的表现

虚伪，是一种戴着面具做人的表现

虚伪，是一种道理现实的迹象

只想对你说，你给我的感觉就是很假。

请你脱下你的面具，做回自己。

我不想再对着牛弹琴了

谦虚学习而不是虚伪的说着你受教

也不是空口说白话

不要只是讲，做！行动最实际！

希望你真的如愿以偿，身为你的朋友也想你过得好吃得好睡得好。

加油吧！把你的虚伪留给下一个人吧，我不需要也不想要。

When the time we together

This is the only one post about my group of PR friends in UTAR. They are really awesome. I love them so much... Although we seldom meet each other *skipped class ma ^^haha*, do really have fun when doing assignment with this group of people.

This all picture is took at block A UTAR while waiting to consult our English For Mass Communication lecturer-Miss Suzzane. I still remember our appointment at 630pm but end up nearly 8pm only finish the session or just getting started the consultation *forget already* horrible...

Thats is me, Poicia and Elise.

Our Year 1 sem 3 picture. Poicia was hardly to 'book' now. She was kinda busy this year. Mostly education stuff and she is just active student in taking part in all the UTAR event. I think i had never meet her this semester. ^^

However, Elise is one of my best friends in UTAR. She is cute*sometimes*, pretty*always* haha... Just have fun when together with she and the group.

Well, we are not the only group waiting for consultation but still got more. We used the time to take picture and chit-chating. 

In the front is Ginny and the new member is Cheryl.

Ginny is one of the peer helper same as me. But im not active as she. At least she got good relationship with the counselor and others peer helper ^^lolx... 

Cheryl, Elise's roommate. We same group assignment since year 1 sem 1 untill now. We usually together to eat, play, fun, jogging and so on. Have some pillow talk with only them^^

That one hugging me is Esther. 

She is the cuties 1. A lot of fun when together with she. Totally can make you faint sometimes...hahahaXD

Busuk-nya

Ya, we can play alot of thing as long as we together.

The poser of the year~

Not ready yet la~

Ok, 1,2,3 ka cha~

Haha... I enjoy the time when we doing our PR press conference. Do have every week atleast 1 meeting to discuss about the thingy ^^ 

Cheryl, year1 sem1. presentation.

At the only entertainment place in kampar -A box. With Yee Leng, Elise, Cheryl and me. 

Quite a long time no sing k with them~ sad.

Thats all the picture i have with them. Yes, we dont usually take picture. So i dont have much^^ Hope to take all alot more before we graduate. Friends forever~~

Victor Wong

I have never thought my school can successfully organized the first ever bigger event in UTAR. It attracted nearly 2000 people to go for this event. They really did the very good job.*clap* Yesterday, it was a Chinese culture night. They have invited Victor Wong as their guest. Victor Wong Pin Kuan, origin from Malaysia that one. Yesterday night was very crowded, most of them attended the event because of the artist. You know what?? We only paid RM10-RM8 already can meet a big star, how can we miss it?? *laugh*hahahaha.... Actually i go there just for attending one of UTAR event. So far i have never been to any of the event organize by UTARian yet. And this is my first. Never regret to paid this money, because is really worth it. Although im not his fans, yet still supporting him when he appear infront of us. All the UTARian become small little fans when meet Victor Wong- lost control. 

Victor Wong

He is just so near, beside us only. I saw his face, quite old *laugh*, heavily make-up till he look 'chan'. Is all right, most of the artist will look 'chan' because they work till late night most of the time right?? Hahaha.... He stay for awhile to give his signature to those who bought his CD. ^^wee..... 

Besides, the night is still yet great. They rent out some booth for student, society and food stall to introduce Chinese food and for fund raising purpose. Honestly, those food are just can found in pasar malam ^^ so the booth there is just can define as small pasar malam. Everyone is so gan chieong to busy buying their food, maybe they're just too hungry. The event start at 7pm but 730pm only can get in to the complex. Sure they all busy buying food lo, damn hungry ma. Ohya, i won a moneybox from my friend booth. Im so lucky, im their first customer and first person who took away their gift^^ And i only paid RM1. *wink* Overall is good, the performance is good as well. UTARian, gambateh!!!! 

Jiayou for myself also, final project hopefully can be this success. 

*sorry for no picture to illustrate the story, i dont own any camera and the only 1 i got is just my poor phone canera ^^hehe~*

Happy

Im just too happy this two days. Know what?? My secondary school best friends find me yesterday. We sms each others and chat alot of things. We planning to have a meet after once i got back to kuala lumpur. Yup, recently busy with study stuff, so no time to go back. Will give her a call immediate after got back.

Introduce : she is Xiao Fen, my secondary school best friends. We have already long lost. We didnt meet up after form 2. So quite a long time. When i got her sms, i was very happy and hope to see her soon.

And this is the photo she and her boyfriends. Happy to know she got one and treat her good.

Secondly, my secondary schoolmate + classmate for 2 years+ perfectorial board = best friend. She is now on the way back to Malaysia. YES. Is Malaysia. She doing her study at oversea so now she had return to Kuala Lumpur for her holiday.  Well, her plane will depart on wednesday and she will officially in Kuala Lumpur ^^wee~~

Looking forward to meet her up with our gang of ex-prefect. All are totally crazy person. When you hear something loud in the shopping complex, dont scare. Is us. Do come and say hi to us~ahahahahaXD

She is Tzen. Welcome back Malaysia ya. Give you a call once i back to KL.